Me!issa Sanddy

Nitez Blog…it’s 30th December 2009 already…time feels so fast….now feel soooo sleepy but still with my sequence he2 facing my night alone with my sister sleeping tightly like big baby…^^ wish everything be finished on time and be satisfying as my last project in college..
ohya it’s gonna new year..wanna make wish and set goals for next year…I’m gonna spent and ends up this year with my high school friends it’s gonna be fun… will I spent my night in yuli place?? dunno…but mizz d time we’ve spent last year together writing wish and setting goal together and share it … nice memory..may be have to start it over and recover it back…no body’s perfect…close and ends up d bad thing in d past…just wish me luck and i’m not gonna be that sensitive anymore facing others..

my dear blogzz….

why everything become like this….i hate this kind of feelings…dunno what i have to do…wanna back but i’cant turn back like d one i used to be….wanna run away and acting like strangers but my feelings feel so bad…. i’ve heard a lot of story behind me…a lot negative thinking run in my mind…how can i turn back and pretend nothing happend….should i let it just stay like this keep acting like this…. but ….but my heart still hurt thinking d past we spent together…may be they’ve clear me from their mind….T.T hiks..

What is it inside a friendship….. apa yang ada di dalam sebuah persahabatan…. persahabatan hrsnya lebih mendalam dibanding pertemanan biasa..kalau pertemanan hanya diisi dengan cerita2 mengenai seputar kegiatan sehari2 yang dilakukan bareng2 dan sharing2 ilmu…but persahabatan hrsnya lebih dari itu…harusnya bisa saling mengerti satu sama lain…dan bisa menghibur disaat lu sedih dan merasa beban lu berat…tp jika di saat itu mereka ga mengerti mengenai dirimu dan malah cenderung cuek dan menjauhimu ketika ur in trouble…apakah mereka itu ur real friend? dunno…..never know someone heart…well..that’s the part of my skripsi path…lost may be my friends the one i think care for me but the fact is i can’t feel they care for me…….. >.<

Nitez blog…long time abandon you…now my skripsi is getting into chapter 4 with a lot of uncertainty still need some revision and all of my friends are fighting too . A lot of story and obstacles start from the start ..from waiting skripsi audit, finding company, waiting proposal being approved, my grandmother passed away, my laptop is broken….but one by one i’ve passed it because of His help through the people around me thanks to Jesus and d people help me…. every problem have it’s way to be solved and it must be solved so what we need to do is find d way and pray….so keep strong and fighting melissa…he2 when you pass this all u’ll become a better person…

“Never stop your steps cause one step again u’ll success”

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Hi blogs ku….hari ini hari lebaran -1. Binus sepiiii banget dech kalo menjelang lebaran…semua pada pulang kampung…hehe ternyata jakarta itu sepi warga aslinya…pada ramenya pendatanggg semua..ketauan kl pas lebaran pada mudikkkk semua..hihi. Kalau lebaranan di binus pasti terjadi sindrom: aqua galon abizzz, makanan pada tutup, jalanan sepi kayak death city hehe…ini tahun kedua ku dech lebaranan di jakarta dan ga mudik…masih inget tahun lalu pas lebaranan si ike ma sop2 nginap trus goreng kentang bareng n cerita2..haha..secara cici gw spend her time ama keluarga cowonya…tahun ini i have to spend it alone dengan setumpuk hal yang ingin kulakukan tapi tak kunjung kulakukan haha spt pengennya sich bljr akun buat pwc but belum juga, pengen bikin skripsi tp belum juga, pengen baca novel menikmati liburan juga serba salah >.< . Melihat ike pegi ke bali, aku kepikiran pengen ke bali dechhhh kayaknya enak haha secara i love waterrr so much...trus kata ciciku kalo aku udah nyelesaiin semua urusan mengenai my study..and udah graduate..terserah mw kemana ajah juga boleh haha...pengen cepat lulus siahhhhhhh.....amin2....

Nitez my blog…huhu now it’s 11:59 p.m….one minute left to enter new month “September”. Now, i’m starvingggggg and dizzy caused read a lot of my paper huh….a little bit “eneg” haha but still have to survive to past the next six month..have to past this step by step..he2..ohy today i got my second salary from becoming a tutor (fiuh finally i get it all) haha but i just feel that it’s not that much may be because i get more in my previous job but still have to thanks all we get right.
feel sleepy now… wanna sleep z..zz..zz thx god for everything happend to me today ^___^

Morninxxx now it’s 12.37 a.m in jakarta, blogs i feel really2 sleepy but i mizz to write something here. Today is saturday and this is the day people in jakarta and other place like d most perhaps. People in love is spending their time together like watching movie like my sister or just hanging around in mall like my friend, people working hard in a week relax at home totally and spent time with their family, some people hang out with their old friends. nah what i did today is being a tutor in the afternoon (still finding for a plate of rice) then feel wanna spent time somewhere but i hate to be in a mall alone then decided just going home and doing something useful. what i wanna say is today i’m realize that when u’re in adult age like now we can’t be so intense again together with people around us. Everyone have their own social life like relationship with boyfriend, with their own family, with their other social life like working mate or long lost friend. So, guys we can;t be always together with the person we love so we have to more appreciate the time with our beloved friends, boyfriend or girlfriend, and also family. Being together is feel so right but being alone feel so empty. hehehe

Overall thanks God for today ^_^ wanna sleep now….

Nitez blog…it’s been a long time not blogging heheh…a lot of things happend to me…

1st thing is that :..my proposal finally get in and i revised my proposal in one day…thx god for everythings happend to me i just really amazed how He plans all the things for me…i finally have ms . rindang as my skripsi tutor..and i still waiting for my information system tutor and i know He will give the best for me…hehe i really expected mr. Parto but i surrender hahaha….i wish my thesis is going well…start now i have to learn a lot, do a lot, have stamina to struggle, don;t give up too fast..Go Go Go..hehe

2 nd thing is that : my relationship with sop2 n ike is i dunno how to say that but i’m surely feel it’s not the same again i’m not that important again to them >.< …and may be need time to recover that again…someone say that it’s easy to forgive but not forget…i definitely agree with that….i just do my best to have them again..sometimes what u do is wrong to other..fiuhhhh just wanna do good things and dun;t get anyone hurt…

Hope tommorow is gonna be better  heheh

Hari ini gw ngerasa kayak jauhhhh banget dari temen2 gw …gw ga tw dech ntar kl dah lama bangettt n gw bk lagi blog ini gw bakal masih jalan ama mereka apa ga…>.< gw mkn hrs lebih sensitif kali ya….sesuatu yang gw anggep bakal biasa ajah bisa jadi menjadi masalah yang penting banget buat orang lain…just wish my thesis well done on time.. and my friendship is gonna be okay…

Nitez my blogzzz…

hari ini hari minggu ketiga bulan Juli tanggal 26 Juli 2009….sebulan ini perasaan gw campur adukk dan hari ini is the worst day. Bulan ini gw harus masukkin proposal skripsi…tp sampai saat ini gw blm masukkin proposal dan temen2 ku yang lainnya udah pada masukkin proposal mereka..gw cemas dan takut…gw masih harus menanti atau tidak…….awalnya gw bener2 berharap mengenai skripsi audit..tp ketika tak kunjung ada kabarnya…gw ml takutttt banget dan mencoba untuk coba survey tempat yuli…berpikir untuk make decision…but the reality is that i can;t get in the company cause they got their system already….and that day i feel reallly sad…but i have to face it and focus on skripsi audit and keep on waiting…but i have to do something in the worst case…tadinya mw ngambil tmpat bokap kerja tapi bokap ga gitu ngerti sistem and finally my big sister mungkin bisa bantu…dan i try to make my second proposal…gw bingung sebenernya kemana gw harus melangkah…ketika gw gagal tempat yuli gw ngerasa may be it is for me……dan hari ini ..gw bener2 sedih banget…gw ga ngerti kenapa masalah gw bikin proposal dua might cause misunderstanding between my friends…gw mungkin salah ga cerita ama mereka karena gw kira mereka tau dengan sendirinya ketika mereka menghabiskan waktu bersama gw cukup intense…worst day…worst feeling……>.<

But i still have to keep strong and fighting for my thesis…to make my mom and dad proud of me..